_Roses are red, until they die' ;

[Monday, November 5, 2007]

12:48 AM

I looked at him. I had been studying him for a few days now. It seems like all he can do is shed tears. He looks at his parent's graves; they had died five days ago, they were quite drunk and died in a car crash. He had been doing better before his parents died of course. Before they died there were smiles on his face everyday, he felt this happiness humans speak of when he was with his family, I never understood this. Now that they were gone this child could only cry. I decided to leave on the tenth day, back to Nibiru. He walked to school as usual, this day was no different. He was called names, and even one other human kicked him. How can humans live in such a rotten world? This is why all humans need to die, I thought. But the child tried to do the best he could.
He tried his best. He tried to make friends. He tried to have fun. But in the end he killed himself; and 32 other people with him. He could not take it.

once on a yellow piece of paper,
he wrote a poem
and he called it "chops"
because that was the name of his dog.
and that's what it was about
and his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
and his mother hung it on the door
and read it to his aunts
that was the year father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
and let them sing on the bus
that was the year his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
and his mother and father kissed a lot
and the girl around the corner sent him a
valentine signed with a row of x's
and he had to ask his father what the x's meant
and his father always tucked him in at night
and was always there to do it

once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem called "autumn"
because that was the name of the season
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
and the kids told him
that father Tracy smoked cigars
and left butts on the pews
and sometimes they would burn holes
that was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
and the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
and the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
and his father never tucked him in at night
and got mad when he cried for him to do it

once on a piece of paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
called "innocence; a question"
because that was the question about his girl
and that's what is was all about
and his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
that was the year that father Tracy die
dand he forgot how the end of apostle's creed went
and he caught his sister making out on the back porch
and his mother and father never kissed
or even talkedand the girl around the corner
wore too much makeupthat made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
and at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

that's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
and he called it "absolutely nothing"
because that's what it was really about
and he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
and he hung it on that bathroom door
because he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen

_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;